Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Oh well. I haven been feeling good these few days...

I thought if things can stay the way it had been for that few days, when i feel happy and trust that this relationship to work, then it will be great. But appartently, things are not how i want it to be...

These few days, he has been giving mi attitude, and then not admitting it. Just now on the phone, he give mi the stupid attitude again. Making it sound like I am the one who always want to contact him. It's making me so frustrated!

when I call him while I was inn school cos he was supposed to come and meet mi, he answer the phone, with a "call mi for wat?(zhao wo zhou mo)?". Its like he not happy or wat, or like he not expecting my call. Next time he call mi i shall do the same to him man...

then its always me asking him tomorrow how? why? its like i am thinking of meeting him like usually, but he's thinking some other thing. if he's busy or dun wan meet mi, i will rather he say.

then in front of his frens, he have to make it sound like I cannot wait de... cos he said "you know she cannot wait de wat" to his frenz... make mi look like a idiot, and he nv think of wat others will think... wat others will think if we meet until so xin ku"...

today, he give mi attitude on phone again... next time i wun call him when i free la... i had thought that he will be happy to hear my call... but it's not so! i thought anyone should be happy to receive a call from their gf... but i sense nothing of happiness from him...

he gives me excuses of trying to learn how to plan for me, to make me happy last night when we argue... i wish that its true... but if its true, then why is there no change when we talk today? i am still upset...

alot of people may have misunderstand mi, but i need to know... its cos of wat?

anyway, seeing him now... i dunno how i will feel again... sigh...