Friday, February 25, 2005

Sigh...
I feel so sorry for my blog... when i first start it, it's supposed to be a happy one... but now, it's got more sad stuff than happy ones... It's that how our relationship is anyway

I'm so tired of making effort... of talking bout our problems... of feeling so lousy... I keep thinking... is this relationship good for mi at all?

I wrote him a note yesterday in school... i was all alone, and it was during my radio program... and well, the emotions just all come to mi... i was so so sad... i keep thinking of how we were... how we used to be... and i wonder if we had lost it all... and i know from past experience, that if something is lost, its hard to gain it back...

In the note that i wrote him... i mention lots of things between us... everything actually... and i gave it to him that night... he din response after reading... and i wonder wat to think bout that? but well, he told mi to wait... for the next day... i wonder why... but i dun wan to force him anyway...

Actually, that note seems so much like a breakup letter... i wun be surprised if he take it as tat... i wun be at all... Perhaps we had our happy times... and it's already enough...

Actually... i am so unsure of things now... and i feel like there's nothing i can do now... it's so frustrating...

Not to mention bout my recent life... sigh... no more pplay time for mi... everytime, I'm rushing projects... rushing here and there... and the only entertainment I've got is Tv... it's so sad...

All the stress... I really wish that at this time, he'll be there cheering mi up... and encouraging mi... i really wish that we'll be like last time when we talk for ages on the phone happily... and go out happily... that's wat make mi like him... care for him... but where is that now?

I need a change... big time...