Wednesday, January 09, 2008

To everyone who thought we will break up in a couple of months last time, well, eat your words! haha... Its been 3 yrs. Long time or not?

Seriously to me its like very long... and within this period of time I feel like i've changed alot... I have no ideaif its good or bad, but inside me I know I am different... maybe some parts are still the same, but somethings I feel now is different.

I think he must have changed too. Just that he don't normally show his emotions. I admire the way he can be so simple... take things in stride... with him there is no pressure...

I know he is a great guy... but why do I feel something is missing, or maybe different from last time... I wish he feels it too... and will talk to me about it... Maybe he feels it but he is just trying to change it using action instead of talking... I should appreciate it....

Mentally I am so stress up recently... Wanna have a shoulder to lean on... or a person to escape with me to another place... even if just for a while.

I don't wanna leave you behind dear... but I really scare that I am drifting further and further from you.... I need that kind of very close feeling that we once had....

We understand each other so much... and accept things about each other... so can we find the feeling back?

Really love and misses you....